失与得

或许得不到的才是最完美的吧。。。

Daydream Delusion

Daydream delusion

Limousine Eyelash
Oh, baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet cakes and milkshakes
I am a delusion angel
I am a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like two branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?

"We have no idea where we're going"
"Don't you know me by now?"
How nice. How apt.

未知的未来

今天和树看了两部电影。Before Sunrise 和 Before Sunset。

可能因为电影的关系, 我们谈了很多感情的事。原来他的婚姻在这一个月来并不快乐。似乎是因为我和树和一群朋友去了 Mount Ophir 一起爬山, 而他的老婆介意我的存在。当树说他的老婆在吵架时提到离婚, 顿时我真的真的不知该如何反应。虽然我说过如果树离婚我会追他,但当下我真的不知如何是好。是应该说我还在等你,还是说如果需要的话我们可以不要再见面了。

是的,我还存在幻想和他在一起, 甚至有时做梦都会梦见和他在一起。是的,我知道我们的兴趣一样,而且生活概念一样。是的,我曾经非常希望他会离婚。可是,当下的我觉得他现在一点都不快乐。而我真正希望的是他会快乐。或许这才是爱吧, 不需要拥有但却深深希望对方会幸福。所以我说了如果需要的话, 我们可以停止见面。

我觉得电影里有很多经典句子能用在我和树的身上。 而一起看这部电影也非常有意义。希望他能从当中领悟到他觉得有意义的事情。

树, 不论以后如何, 希望你能幸福。

Applying what i learnt. F up thinking.

Read a book on investing today. Zurich axioms. There is a statement inside that states: "A month or a year after you have cashed out, you can, if you wish, torment yourself by looking to see if the winning set continued without you".

Two years after I walked out, I can, if I wish, torment myself by looking to see if he continued without me.

What f. up thoughts am I applying here......